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Chapter 39 - Jasmine - Aladdin
Jasmine is free-spirited and brave. There might be a little rebel in her, too!
"God
damn it," I whisper hiss when I step on the stair that creaks, the
right side of the fifth one from the top. I freeze, certain that Mom
will wake up the second the sound floats through the air and slips
beneath her door like some sort of wispy stream of smoke.
I'm
being overly paranoid, I know I am. Mom's always been a heavy sleeper. I
suppose that comes from living with Dad and his schedule for so long. I
make it the rest of the way down the stairs with no incident, though
it's not until I silently go out the sliding glass doors, that I allow
myself to breathe.
The other night, the night after Mom and Dad
got home, was so much easier than this. I'm sure it had something to
with the fact that I was going out of my mind with wanting to see Bella
so much that I ignored the spike of adrenaline and the way my heart
hammered in my chest, much the way it is now. I have to take a few deep
breaths and I can feel myself start to calm down by the time I walk in
the direction of the woods.
Involuntarily, I shiver when a gust of
wind buffets me, cooling the sweat that slides down the back of my
neck. My footsteps are sure and quick; by this point I know the route
between our houses as well as I know that the sweet spot when I shoot is
to the left of the center of my foot. It's instinct and I give into the
ease in which my legs carry me toward Bella.
I yawn, wide and for
a long time, so long it makes my eyes water. I almost want to curse
what seems like the never-ending cycle of clock watching, cat naps
whenever I can find time for them, practice, spending time with Jasper,
Emmett, and my parents, not to mention all the time I spend thinking
about Bella. But how can I, really? It's exhausting at times and the
nagging worry that I'm not as ready for camp as I should be is always
present, but thoughts of Bella make it all fade away.
I feel
myself harden as I skirt a fallen branch and then jump carefully, but
without pausing, over a clump of rocks and dirt. The silvery-white
moonlight, bright enough in a clear inky sky, makes it to where I don't
maim myself - three weeks before camp no less - and I slow down, though
every part of me screams to hurry up and just get to her. With my free
hand I adjust, and let out a quiet, needy groan when I twitch inside of
my shorts.
Fucking hell.
Realizing that it's a complete
effort in futility to stop thinking about her so that my dick doesn't
force its way out of my shorts, I give in and let the thoughts fly as my
feet keep moving forward.
I want her.
I want in her.
On her.
Above her. Below her. Around her.
I
want to feel her slick and hot. I want to feel hard nipples pressed
against my chest and silky soft hair in between my fingers. I want to
feel her breath, warm and sweet against my mouth, my ears when she tells
me she wants me and Christ Almighty, do I ever want to hear her say
that?
I'm pretty fucking sure I'm a third, a half, maybe even
five-eighths sort of, probably, more than likely, I think, in love with
her so it's more than just sex and wanting to get it on with her.
There's an ache, and one that's not only between my legs, that longs for
her. It goes deeper than just wanting to be the person that she leans
on when everything with her mom and Phil overwhelms her, or the one
whose hand she holds when she needs help.
I want to be hers.
I want it every bit as much as I want her to be mine.
It's
way too fucking early to think in those terms, especially when I can't
focus on much past seeing her now. I'm not an idiot, though Bella makes
me as crazy as a shit house rat at times, and more often than not, I
don't know which way is up, but even I know it's way too damn soon to
think too far down the road. There's no doubting at this point that we
like each other … a lot … but there's so much uncertainty, so much still
to talk about, it scares the hell out of me to think too far into the
future.
I scrub my face with my free hand as her house comes into
view, thankful at least that my raging hard-on has subsided … for the
most part. Just being in the same vicinity as her is enough to have me
raring to go, but I've learned to manage.
The closer I get, the
more nervous I become, especially when I see a strange large, black car
in the driveway. My first reaction is one of fear, then it quickly
changes to irrational jealousy. It takes all of thirty seconds to
realize it's Phil's car. I walk quickly past it, shaking my head just a
bit at how surreal the entire situation is.
Phil Dwyer,
world-famous MLB baseball pitcher is here … in Forks … and as far as I
can tell, no one knows. Or if they do, no one's talking. I wonder how
Bella will handle that part of things as more and more people find out
who her step-dad is and what's happened to her mom. However she deals
with it, I'll be right by her side.
I hurry inside her building,
totally thrilled to find her notebook waiting for me. Two days without
her words is enough, and it makes me not want to even think about what
camp will be like. I wasn't sure, especially with Phil here, how she'd
handle things … this … but she promised she'd keep to her schedule if
she could, or our schedule, I suppose. Thank God. I take a moment to let
being this close to her, in our place, because oh yeah, it's just as
special to me as it is to her now, wash over me and work its magic. It
only takes a few deep breaths while the scent of sugar cookies and
peppermint – which I've found out it is from her shampoo – saturates the
air and seeps into my skin.
Her drumsticks lay across the snare. Jesus, I hope she plays tonight. Like her words, I need her music, too.
I
open the notebook in my hand and do a quick once over of what I wrote
to her last night. Not that I really need to, but sometimes, my brain
moves faster than my fingers can form words, so I'm just making sure I
don't sound like a bumbling idiot … or not too much of one at any rate.
Bella,
I
wish you could have been here with me tonight … or I was with you, or
we just could have been together. I was surrounded by people all day,
and while I had a decent time, I missed you. Is that strange? It is
isn't it, since we've never done anything together, but I felt like
there was this piece that was supposed to be here, but wasn't. Did you
see the fireworks? I want to watch them with you … next year, okay?
Today I
told my friends about you and what happened to your mom and dad. Rose
wanted to rush to your house to come get you. Jasper and Emmett about
shit their pants when I told them Phil's your step-dad, just like I knew
they would. They'll be such good friends to you, Bella. They can't wait
to meet you and even though Ali isn't here, she will be so excited to
hear about you. Please don't be nervous about meeting them, they're
going to love you.
My stomach does its usual twisty turny
thing seeing the word, because as much as I know they all will love her …
they most certainly aren't the only ones that will.
Do.
Might.
Whatever.
How's
the visit with Phil going? Is it hard having him here? I want him to
make things better for you, but I don't know if he just makes them
worse. That's an asshole thing to say, isn't it? Shit, I'm sorry. I just
hate thinking of you being sad or uncomfortable or anxious, like I
really hate it.
I tell her some more about camp because she's
asked. I tell her how long I've been working toward this and what it
might mean for my future. Seeing my words, my dreams, written down in my
own handwriting shocks the shit out of me, and it's pretty damn scary,
too. I want so many things, and I'm as afraid of getting them, as I'm
terrified I won't. College, playing professionally, traveling,
representing the country by making the National Team … it's almost too
much. But talking to her about it makes it seem not quite so daunting.
When
the fireworks were going off tonight all I could think about was
kissing you beneath them, while they explode overhead and shower the sky
with streaks of color. Of course I think about kissing you anywhere,
anytime … all the time these days.
Shit, I better stop before I make an ass out of myself.
I can't wait to see you, I miss you.
Edward
Ugh. The girl has my brain so fried most of the time it's a wonder I'm able to form semi-coherent sentences to begin with.
I
switch out the notebooks and glance at my watch. A sudden spike of
anxiety makes me break out into a cold sweat when I remember that Phil's
here and well, he might not be particularly understanding of the
arrangement Bella and I have set up. I scurry to my post, breathing
heavily for a few moments until I'm sure he's not watching me from a
window or worse yet, trying to find a gun.
The thought makes me want to pee my pants.
Shit.
By
the time I've beaten back the urge, I hear the door open and there she
is. I groan. I bang the side of my head against the tree beside me and
wrap my arm around it to hang on for dear life before my knees give out
and I'm in a heap on the ground.
Jesus.
Black shorts, a
tight, very short-sleeved, white t-shirt with Jasmine on the front, hair
down and brushing her shoulders and curling around her face … making me
really second-guess that whole 'I like her hair up better' thing. She
hesitates, cocking her head, making it seem like she's listening to make
sure no one inside, or Phil specifically, has heard her leave. I hold
my breath. I need her out here tonight and my body sags against the tree
when she takes a step, glancing in my direction for just a brief
moment.
"Bella," I whisper her name only, but it's everything I need to say.
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